Okay, so…
As you’ve probably guessed after a spurt of clicking, scrolling & having a general nosey, this is the official website of Rapper, XtG – AKA yours truly. Had to get that out of the way 1st – hate referring to myself in 3rd person… sounds SO pretentious 🤢
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& now that’s out of the way, it’s also time for a that disclaimer…
As you’ll soon see, I was given the childhood nickname ‘Gobsh*te’ for good reason. So if you’re…
I hate to break it to you, but this blog… it ain’t the one for you. #HarshButTrue
However… if you’re up for a laugh & detest the thought of being boring & normal – then a BIG “Bonjour” to you, fellow reader… our digital chemistry should be through the roof!! 😏
But let’s get to the point…
See, you’re probably wondering how on God’s earth a guy from West Yorkshire rolled out of bed one day, & said: “To hell with a conventional life – amma be a lyrical MC… innit“.
Well… that all comes back to one word.
FREEDOM! 💪
See, knowing what you know now, you’d probably expect ‘young me’ to be a substitute teacher’s worst nightmare – the ostentatious loudmouth who’d cause her cheeks to glow bright red & steam to gush from her ears like an agitated cartoon character 😤 But no.
In fact, young me was the complete opposite.
I wasn’t the jock, footy fan or the tech nerd (you can cross all those off your list). Nor was I ‘Mr Privileged’ who mistook a teacher for his personal butler. Heck, I wasn’t even that mad on computer games either. And when everyone was going crazy over the Blackberry & the iPhone 3, I really couldn’t care less 🤷🏼♂️
Besides – my social circle wasn’t huge, & even when I was talking in a group – I can’t describe how – I just felt… out of place.
You guessed yet?
Don’t act like you don’t know me – you do.
I was that kid – the one you’d find at the back of the class, head down, absorbed in a book (mainly because I didn’t have a flippin’ clue what to say). The type to blush bright red, should a member of the opposite sex ask to borrow his pencil sharper 😳
Why you ask?
Well, up to a few years back – I didn’t really know. That was just me. The guy that’s shy when out & about, who morphs into a mischievous loudmouth once he’s home. A habit that’s stuck over the years, even as I entered into the ‘working world’.
In a weird way then, I suppose ever since been a kid, I’ve been living 2 lives.
(shudders) 😖
Although, after years of frantic (but equally productive) job-hopping, I’m convinced I’ve worked it out. Because pretty soon I found myself at a crossroads. Sat in an conventional office, having a stare-off with a computer screen, while outside my boss was making a grand entrance behind the wheel of his Porsche.
I didn’t even need to look – I could tell he’d upgraded to a 4.0l turbo just by ear 👂🏼
And it was in that moment, which I was hit by the most unexpected spurt of brutal honesty I’ve ever experienced. After taking 1 look at the situation, my brain stopped – before yelling…
❗️”OMFG – HOW? HOW? HOW ON GOD’S EARTH DID YOU EVEN GET HERE??!!“❗️
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I…
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I didn’t have an answer.
It was at that point fear started to cultivate inside me. Globules of sweat formed across my forehead 😥 Without hesitation I upped & left to the men’s room, wedging myself in a cubicle before slamming the door.
I’ve never experienced this before, but assume it’s similar to what you experience in a rocky relationship. That feeling where you’re dead certain on where you’re going, only to (without warning) have the rug ripped out from underneath your feet.
A rude awakening – but one I needed nonetheless 😬
That night… I lay awake in bed. Tossing & turning, trying to figure out what all of this meant.
Was it spot on? Had I indeed veered off course? Was I destined for more?? Or was it all just a HUGE overreaction??? 🤯 All questions I pondered on for the next month or so, before the truth (finally) revealed itself…
You see, being that guy – the shy kid @ the back of the class – I’d never really stepped out of line. Up until then, that just wasn’t in my DNA. But as I looked back, I began to see a pattern… virtually every decision I’d made was off the back of what’s ‘sensible’, or what someone else had told me to do.
To put it bluntly, I’d become a ‘Yes Man’ ☹️
Someone who’d become SO used to listening to other people – many of whom were bona fide losers – that I’d never taken the time to ask myself what I liked, or what I wanted to do. And that’s where music comes in…
As far back as I can remember, music has just… been there.
Whether it be being spun around the living room by my ankles to Lou Reed’s ‘Perfect Day’…
Jamming with Pops to Westlife’s ‘World Of Our Own’ while cruising down Huddersfield Road…
Or imagining what it’d be like as a 1st-class ladies’ man, while listening to G-Unit’s ‘Smile’ during art class…
I’ve never once gone without it; it’s always being doing ‘it’s thang’… quietly in the background.
Which is why I physically kicked myself when I realised this.
OUCH! 🤕
See – for me, becoming a lyrical MC, is beyond ironic. Pretty much the career equivalent of dating 100s of people, only to realise ‘the one’ has been hiding under your nose this entire time. & while that does feel a bit frustrating, it also doubles as proof.
Proof that some of the best things in life come from the most unlikely of places 🙊 Hence my slogan & now motto for life…
See you in the next one guys,
X
XtG is a UK rapper, who prides himself on his blunt no-nonsense approach to music. His sole aim being to do just 1 thing… turn convention on its head.
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